this little piggy...

So, Marc is home. YEAH! I have stopped spotting. YEAH! My parents come in less than three weeks. YEAH! And, Marc has (probably) SWINE FLU?! YUCK! I am just trying to decide if I feel pregnant, or sick. One may never know. I have tried to think all day about what we should name this soap opera that is our life. Any suggestions?!

the learning curve of life

So, to give you an update, all is going well. My hormones are "going up at the appropriate level" and the bleeding has stopped. I hesitate to post this for fear that the Karma police will step in and take something good away. Why is is that we think that there is some giant scale in life that has to be balanced?! We think that if we get a really big blessing, that there must be some big trial or bad thing waiting. For right now, I am just enjoying the good that seems to be coming. Marc should be home on Monday night. They tried to extend him AGAIN another three weeks, but the silver lining is that the registration on his car plates expires. He cannot stay in Germany with expired plates. I will never be more happy to pay that fee than I will this week.
I have been pondering alot about life lately. Too much time on my hands while I "took it easy." I am surprised at how much of life we miss living because we are busy being angry, offended, worried that we offended someone, or just worried that if we start to enjoy life, we will be hit with real trials. I remember on my mission, when I had only about a month left. I told my mission president that it was too bad that I was done, because I was finally starting to figure it out. He said that that is how life is. I have come to understand some of that. I wish that the lessons we learned from life could be learned before we need them. The very trial that teaches us patience is the trial that could have gone better if we were already patient. Maybe someday, the learning curve of life will make more sense to us. For now, we just need to pray and hope that we can at least pass the course.

Trying to learn patience, QUICKLY!!!

Anyone who knows me, instantly knows a couple of things: I am not quiet or shy, (sorry Mom), I am too independent, and I am NOT patient. Well, this is the month that I am beginning to understand patience. Marc has been in Germany for around a month. We have been trying to have another baby for more than three years. With an Iraq deployment and two miscarriages, I was beginning to really question if we would ever have any more. Well, I thought I was pregnant. I don't just mean hoped, I mean just sort of KNEW. Then I started to spot and thought, "O WELL, guess I'm not." Then I went to the doctor for some thyroid problems and he ran a pregnancy test, POSITIVE. Well, I explained that I was already bleeding and didn't expect to keep the pregnancy. I went home and couldn't even muster the hope to pray to keep it. After two weeks of bleeding with positive pregnancy tests, I finally got into a doctor (long story that would make you HATE SOCIALIZED MEDICINE)by going to the American Air Force ER that is almost three hours away. After a LONG wait watching an ENTIRE NFL Football game, I got into the doctor and they did an ultrasound. It is absolutely AMAZING that they can see a thing the size of a raisin, with a heartbeat. They told me I was officially six weeks and one day pregnant. The raisin didn't even have arms or legs,but it had a heart beat. So I am taking it easy and trying to have faith in God's plan.

My mother-in-law, Julie, who is more like a second mom, sent me this quote:
"Patience is tied very closely to faith in our Heavenly Father. Actually, when we are unduly impatient, we are suggesting that we know what is best—better than does God. Or, at least, we are asserting that our timetable is better than His. We can grow in faith only if we are willing to wait patiently for God's purposes and patterns to unfold in our lives, on His timetable."
-- Elder Neal A. Maxwell

I realized that no matter what happens, I was not showing enough faith in Heavenly Father. So, to sum up, I am trying to be patient and just enjoy where we are now, and be worthy of whatever blessing may come next. Maybe someday I might just actually call myself a patient person, (but probably not in a quiet, ladylike voice).

life update

I have no pictures to post, actually I have a lot to post and take, but cannot get the card to work. We have had a busy summer. A whole lot of not much. We went for rides and played with friends and went to Cadbury World (a tame version of Willy Wonka). We finally started school here in England. The boys are both in full time, so I am going to have a lot of time on my hands. So far, all of the projects that I had to do have been put off. I am taking it easy while I go through my third miscarriage. We are disappointed, but the doctors are on top of things and we will hopefully get things worked out.
I redid the boys room. I moved them upstairs to the third floor and have added some fun touches. The theme for their room is maps and red white and blue. I got an old red metal trunk at a junk sale and decoupaged maps all over it. It might just be one of my best projects yet. I am currently recovering my dining room chairs, but cannot decide on a covering. I was leaning towards fabric, but then remembered how lovely vinyl is to clean. I will post pictures. So far, out of five rooms and three floors, I just need to finish the boys' room and our junk/guest room.
Marc is in Germany and when he gets home, we will post some pics.
Love to all.